On Developing a Gratitude Practice

 

Sometimes, when I talk to certain people, I see it clearly. Negativity. Like a lot of it. Granted, my own knack for slipping into a nice bath of complaints has been around for ages. Still, I am not one to give into the default settings of my programming. I’d been toying with the idea of a gratitude practice, but it wasn’t until Inge mentioned it that I saw it as a possibility. Here is my gratitude practice thus far.

3 in-progress learning experiences

I have looked into templates on Pinterest when I started this practice way back in November. The reason behind templates is twofold. First, it is to facilitate discussion when I am not feeling my best. Often, my moods settle on an epic low note for days or weeks, so I struggle to come up with coherent thoughts as it is. A template creates a routine to this journal. It also acts as a guiding hand, because I am out of practice when it comes to positivity and gratitude–and I admit this not as a point of pride. Not at all. I want to manage my mental health better.

Victim-mentality drives my narrative and I have a rather cruel lens filtering my daily ups and downs. Reframing the experiences as a learning opportunity is like earth-shattering information to me. I do a lot of panicking when conflict arises, and this template reminds me to try and stay calm.

Plus, I think when I look back and see lessons repeating, it neutralizes the dooms-day threat a little bit. It gives me concrete examples of this conflict repeating. Besides, it could act as a good jumping off point for meditation, journaling, and therapy discussions. Hey, maybe I’ll be more self aware and conscious of how I interact with the world (that is the dream, to be quite frank).

a list of things i am grateful for

I try to list some stuff that makes me happy that day. Moreover, I try not to repeat too much. Now, obviously, sometimes duplicates will appear on my lists, but I do make it a point to not check what I wrote the day before until I am done.

but…testing more prompts

But, I noticed that my journal can be a bit cyclical by doing just two things every day. SO. I am incorporating more prompts. I want to reflect more on different things, and then derive my own gratitude nuggets from whatever it is I have reflected on.

The point is for it to be fairly brief and always consistent. So far, I had been journaling every couple of days, which is not that good. I am going to try it tonight, and keep it

 

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Bullet Journaling and My 2018 Approach To It

Bullet journals are kind of a fashion statement for those who love organizing things. And, let me get on the record to say: I don’t organize things. I am messy, and moody, so it’s hard for me to predict what I can manage to do next.

But, I had started my bullet journal in August of 2017. I think it has helped me a lot, and I am sharing my experience with you today.

2017 lessons on bullet journals

I did not know much about bullet journals early on. Here is a nice link on what these journals’ functions are. Anyway, I have seen many posts on YouTube and Pinterest regarding ideas on how to set up a bullet journal. Essentially, I have been trying out different set up formats and pages.

My favorite way to use the journal is to track my daily activity, mood, and set up a list of the books I got for the month along with the ones I did read as well.

I found that my bullet journal has helped me look forward to my day a little better, for simple reasons. When I decorate my journal for the next day, I find myself decompressing before bed while working on them. Even the simple act of adding stickers, or changing the color of the pen would give me a little boost–I know, it sounds silly.

2018 ideas for my bullet journal

Part of the journal’s charm is to add awareness to one’s daily activities. I noticed that my days tend to be repetitious in terms of the individual tasks. As a result, a sense of hopelessness has been festering along the way.

So, I am thinking of changing my goals for each day. For instance, I always try to write a post on my blog each day, but, instead, it takes me all day, staring at a blank screen. Sometimes, I think I am really clever and attempt to multitask. Let me tell you something about me: I don’t get much done when I am trying to do more than one thing at a time. Therefore, I need to stop trying to go on YouTube, and write a post, while tweeting. It’s not working for me at all.

How does this relate to bullet journals? Well, I am thinking of using mine to also include reminders. Like, “Hey, if you finished this task, give yourself 10 minutes on YouTube.” For a while, I used to designate Pomodoros for each day, and that worked well. I am thinking of going back to that.

Another really neat use of bullet journals is that of trackers. I have slowly been integrating mood trackers, as someone who has a milder form of bipolar disorder (it’s called cyclothymia). I want to cross reference my journals, though. I keep a journal for therapy, and I am thinking of including a short description of how I am feeling, accompanied with why I think I feel that way.

In addition, tracking reading time (in Pomodoros, for ease) sounds like a good idea, because I don’t regulate how often I read. Instead, I try to rely on my mood, which is not such a good idea. Anything that involves me sitting still for a long period of time intimidates me. I think scheduling a time for me to get off the Internet and read will help me disconnect.

Finally, I want to use my bullet journal as a practice in accepting imperfection. I tend to beat myself up for not drawing the perfect shape, or messing up the spelling of a word. For the new year, I want to embrace these flaws and carry on with my journal without ripping pages (that’s why the page numbers help me).

 

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  As 2018 approaches, I am going to try challenging myself to read and comment

Reading Challenges for 2018

 

As 2018 approaches, I am going to try challenging myself to read and comment more often. This idea came from the lovely NovelKnight, who tweeted about 2018 challenges they will be participating in. SO. Being the entirely original peeps that I am, I am following suit. Let’s go!

Because of my anxiety, I don’t want to really talk about teams and sign up officially for any of this. (Surprise! I am breaking the rules already).

beat the backlist

I have learned that back-list books are books that are older than the current year. In other words, for 2018, I will have to be reading books published in the years prior. Here are some of the books I want to try to get to.

1. An Ember in the Ashes by Sabaa Tahir
2. Bone Gap by Laura Ruby
3. Vengeance Road by Erin Bowman
4. The Siren by Kiera Cass
5. The Diviners by Libba Bray
6. Fairyland series by Cathrynne M. Valente (at least read the first one)
7. Gail Carriger’s Parasol Protectorate series (at least read Soulless)
8. The Upside of Unrequited by Becky Albertali
9. Dark Days Club by Alison Goodman
10. Rebel Mechanics  by Shanna Swendson
11. Crown’s Game by Evelyn Skye
12. Any Gaiman book

a series a month

I have many serious I want to try to read this year.  Here are some of them for my potential TBR.

1. Daughter of Smoke and Bone trilogy
2. Seven Realms books (basically, I need to read as much Cinda Williams Chima as possible to catch up)
3. Mistborn first or second trilogy.
4. Legend trilogy by Marie Lu
5. Remnant Chronicles trilogy by Mary E. Pearson
6. Lunar Chronicles by Marissa Meyer
7. Chaos Walking trilogy
8. Firebird trilogy by Claudia Grey
9. Fallen Kingdom by Morgan Rhodes
10. Shiver trilogy by Maggie Steifvater
11. Unspoken trilogy by Sarah Rees Brennan
12. Half Bad trilogy by Sally Greene

OTHER POSSIBILITIES

The Young Elites trilogy by Marie Lu
Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs

commenting 365  challenge 

I am going to attempt to comment on more blogs and just make more friends, in general. From what I have noticed, I don’t comment enough, not even on my own blog do I reply to conversations. It’ll be hard to socialize on some days, I know (and part of this is to push me out of those cycles).

 

 

  Sometimes, when I talk to certain people, I see it clearly. Negativity. Like a
Bullet journals are kind of a fashion statement for those who love organizing things. And,